Nothing like him...

People say we have the same curl in our smiles, but I am nothing like him; I swear to God.  All the things I hate, he almost represents them all.  The same blood runs through my veins, but it's not the same.  It can't be.  Heart filled with hate and anger hurts everyone around him, including himself.   I've learned the same tactics, but I am nothing like him.  Hate makes you hate until all you know is how to hate.  Love is unparalleled.  It knows no bounds or exceptions of stopping, it just is and does what it is.  I know he loves some things, but his hate comes out more easily than anything else.  I am nothing like him, right?  I look in the mirror and don't see his face, but a multifaceted complexion of things I have learned from him.  It's burned into my mind like it's on rewind everyday and every night, it's a rerun again.  I don't want to see it because it's not me, but if it is I'll change me before I except how it is. Adjustments are only beneficial if they make a better person, but some changes are easier than others.  Some are for the better, and some don't feel like a choice; more a born into character flaw.  I am nothing like him; I fight it everyday.  Unlearning something is harder than learning something; it's a choice to try to forget and move on.  Making sure you know the reason you are choosing to forget, to change, to make something different, that is the most important part.  The hope in my heart is making a full turn.  My roots weren't the best, but I can still see a peek of sunlight.  When it shines on me, I am nothing like him.  I came from somewhere, but it doesn't feel like it was a home.  The only thing that matters is I have the right light.  It leads me out of the dark like a small tree surrounded by taller trees blocking the light.  I know to follow the light, I know the light gives me life, and I know the light will challenge me to grow, but it is the love of the light that will change me.  At some point, on some day, I won't have to wonder if I am nothing like him.