Everything for Nothing

As a human, sometimes I get this funny idea that I am pretty great. I sometimes think that I can do a lot of great things for other people; I could help save humanity or something. I get the idea that it is me, that I create that ability somehow to help people. I take the credit for the good I do, but if I do nothing or I do wrong, I then question God and how this whole idea of life operates. I forget that I am just a human being, I forget that I am incapable of doing these things without serving my own purpose. I have to first die to myself and live for Christ, it is the only true way to accomplish anything by his own means. I can be a part of the body, but never the whole. It was just made clear to me, that while I am still adjusting to this life of love and sacrifice, I am not used to being anything for anyone. I grew up with the idea that nobody does anything for anyone else without the motivation for something in return. At least I have not experienced different from that idea. Not to take credit away from my own parents, but sometimes I think responsibility played the part of being a parent more than loving a child. Maybe that's the human capacity at times, to love someone is just being responsible for them. After all the processing, I was enlightened that God became a person, just as I, for no other reason than to love me. Becoming a nobody, to die for every rotten thing on this planet( basically all things), and it was all for nothing; So that I have a chance at love with the father. All have a chance at love with the father. I love underdog stories for this very reason, nobody believes in them up until the end when they understand the meaning of their triumphant win. It means, no matter the circumstance, no matter how far of a long shot it may seem, and no matter how much people don't believe, all have a shot. All have a reason for hope because it is the fathers love for everything, and we get it for nothing.