A fractured soul finds the ultimate healer
Fracture: A) The act or process of breaking. B) The condition of having been broken or ruptured.
A friend of mine recently broke his hand. The break occurred in the upper part of his hand, where the bone connects to your wrist. Although he only broke one bone in his hand, he was undoubtedly useless doing certain things by himself. It is clear that if you lose the use of something like your hand, you have a hard time functioning without it. I am not saying this to say that people with out the use of their legs or hands are useless. It is just an example of something you are naturally used to having that effects your everyday way of living. It takes away your ability to function without someone else’s help, or at least makes it more difficult, and it takes up a lot more time and energy to function like this. If you are skeptical of this, try tying one hand, your more dominant hand, behind your back for the day and see how you feel. My friend had to have surgery to fix the broken bone. The doctor told him the longer he waited to fix the break the worse off his hand would be.
I was able to get together to talk with my mother the other day. We went for a drive by my childhood house, and my first school where I attended kindergarten, and just talked. I was really struggling with some childhood memories with my father. They were just kind of surfacing for me, so I had asked my mom to try and remember some things about me when I was younger, to get an idea of the lost memories, or things I just don’t not remember when I was younger. We talked for awhile about a lot of hurts and pains you endure through out childhood, and your life. We started to talk about the lies that develop about ourselves from other people, and how if you don’t let God’s love recondition those ideas about yourself it will eat away at your soul. You will effortlessly break yourself apart without even understanding how it happens. I got this vision of my friend with the broken hand, and how he seemed to struggled to do anything without the use of his hand, because it was so unnatural for him and painful to sit with a broken or fractured bone. I saw myself, my soul rather, all full of fractures that keep reoccurring. Fractures can go unnoticed for sometime without any pain, until one day with a certain amount of pressure, the fracture will just break. Causing all kinds of problems and pain. It is hard to understand how we human beings live out our lives with fractured souls. Never healing what is broken or fractured. All of these things we endure put a certain amount of pressure on the fractures that have occurred overtime, and without a doubt we all have some fractures, that without time to heal and maybe even unnoticed attention to it, they break. We break. Our souls don’t have the nutrients to sustain the pressure, and to correct the break on our own. I experienced God in a different light with my mother and I sitting in the car. I saw the ultimate healer, and I am broken and fractured all over. All of it had gone unnoticed, unaware of what I had broken. I am not able to function like I should, like I would want to. In this unnatural, fallen state, I am fractured. The extent to which you will not let God reconstructed these fractured mangled breaks in your soul, you will remain that much more paralyzed in your life. Time is of the essence. I am just starting to schedule all my appointments with God, to do some reconstructive surgery.
If you let the person who created your soul, your heart, reconstruct it to where it should be, you’ll experience something so true about yourself. God’s truth of who you are, as you were created to be. You get lost along the way, endure some pressure on these fractures, and ultimately break yourself a part. If you let God in with these things, or release these things over to God, God will always be able to reconstruct something beautiful.
Proverbs 4:23
“Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.”
